somtimes i just love life and i have no idea why.

really no reasoning. maybe its just all the drugs i take. well i guess i start cooper tomorrow and im slowly/hopefully hooking up with that kid. well we already hooked up but see eachother more..? idfk. but all ive really been doin is chillin with remah n trevor/mike... gittin crunk... working... or nothing. lol. im weird. IM QUITTING SMOKING. isnt that soo good. cigarettes are killin my lungs like a motha so im done after my LAST cig. so sad. i want a dread... i really want dreads but id never be able to do it because im a tweak about my hair. trevor said i couldnt wash it 4 two days in order to do one... so believe me. im tweakin out on it. i kinda wanna dye it too but idk what color/s and idk. ill ask remah n mike for their opinions =]]  im a geeeeek. idk im bored n at work and tweakin out. that ok im kinda retarted. WELLLLL im going to go. uhm yep. later hoes

welllll shit son. what do you want me to say? that im pretty much failing all of my classes and that all i do is work? mehh kinda. poke smot too. i guess this is going to be a uber bad weekend cause im seriously working 8-2 at the old peoples home and then 3-1030 at caribbbbou. today and tomorrow. that equals like zero time with mahhh friends. but maybe ill sleeeepover somewhere tonight eh? haha. idk im still kinda retarted. my fucking boss comes into today.. she dont really like me but whatever. i guess i can deal with it. whooo and i got a raise to $10.15.. super! lol i sound like such a goon. man i went through over $25.. fucking insaneeee. idk i guess i dont have anything interesting to write. maybe ill do some homework eh? mm after i write about this hott fucking kid i know. i liiiiike him. hesss shexxy. and not someone ive dated before which is grrreat! idk i hope we chill..and hook up.. we almost did before.. but he had a girlfriend then. IIIII DONT KNOW. im going to get his number today jeea. well i shall get going. whooo.

***Leo - Your Love Profile***

Your positive traits:

You're almost always the center of attention - and easy for potential dates to spot
Your happiness and optimism is appealing to all... and contagious!
You don't hold grudges - getting over little fights is no problem for you

Your negative traits:

You tend to ignore relationship problems, until they are too big to handle
You crave luxury, and you are disappointed with partners who can't provide you with it
If someone does you wrong, you'll coldly and cruelly break their heart

Your ideal partner:

Someone high status enough to bring you more attention - but not so great that they upstage you
Makes you laugh and brings excitement to everything you do together
Is aggressive and confident enough to butt heads with you every so often

Your dating style:

High expectations. You need to be impressed with an incredible first date for a second one to occur.

Your seduction style:

You like to make the first move - you're fearless about initiating things
Passionate. You really get into any intimate act.
Aggressive. Most of the time, you find yourself wanting sex more than your partner.

Tips for the future:

Try to not need so much attention. You'll feel less ignored, guaranteed.
Learn to love your partner for who they are - not how they help advance your life.
Let your partner shine occasionally. You don't always have to be the alpha dog.

Best color to attract mate: Gold

Best day for a date: Sunday

What's Your Love Profile?
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 HAPPY NEW YEARS BITCHES!  

for the last two-ish weeks i have worked hella much. cause its winter break. christmas pretty much sucked. but we got a weenie dog so it was soooo worth it. mmm yes tonight i am spending the night w/ remah n trevor and whatever we would like to do. im pretty excited. woody stopped by my work yesterday.. it was good awkward. blahh im soo o flippin tired idk if i can make it til 12 tonight! i have to return all this shiiiit for my mom after work n then i can go to remahssss =]] yayyy. blah blah blahhh. my lifes been pretty boring lately. not much goin on besides working and seeing remah. wooooo sounds like the life eh?! shit son well idk.  mmm love you!

welllll a lot of shit has gone down. we will start from the beginning-ish. i went to cota [[my teacher that i respect very much.]] and told him i had a drug problem. he told me he would help me get help. i went into treatment. first outpatient but then when i actually told the truth they decided that i better go into outpatient with lodging.. another way to say inpatient but nicer... but the girls were amazzing. we had so much fun. but damn did treatment suck. it was good to be away from my family it made everything like 100x easier. i wish i coulda just lived with those girls for the next few years of my live haha. sooo then i graduated unexpectedly early.. and got to go back to sage. i was soooo happy  but then something happened. i took ONE pill of xanax at school. and one of my best friends there ratted on me. thats fucked up. shes the one that FUCKING CRUSHED IT for me. what the hell is that shit. i have covered for her ass so many times and i could see she would care if she was sober.. but shes far from it. and shes wanted me to smoke with her and all that bullshit. and she fuckin squealed. you know how that makes me feel? how am i sposed to trust people with doing this shit behind my back all the time. its fucked up. its reallllly fucked up. idk what i even want to do anymore. or who to trust. and all my REAL BEST FRIENDS, angie and remah, are in treatment. good thing i have coley and alysse or idk what id do with myself. well i guess thats it for now. KEEPIN YA UPDATED. ooh and i like woody -go figure. but my friend is trying to hook me up with this girl named amber and i kinda like her too. so idk i guess we will see eh? i just want to be happy and live my life the way i want to. thats all.

http://www.myspace.com/craziigurlii15  add muah.

no one reads these anymore. sooo thats pretty much why im on here. so idk. my life has changed so much. its amazzing. i go to SAGE academy && i love it besides the fact that drama there is unbelievable! uhmm im dating a guy named Hank  hes a really sweet guy && i like him. well obviously. my friends.. like from cooper and such havent changed. at all. && i guess that is kinda making me angry. i have grown so much as a person && all they are still worried about is getting drunk && screwing some stranger. idk. whatever i guess. i mean yeah... thats fun every once in awhile but like every night. see that was me. i loved that kind of shiiit. i still do at times. but idk. its getting to be too much. i have two jobs so im constintely working. its getting to me && im getting past the point of exhaustion. i cant even eat anymore because i just cant do it. i dont cut anymore thou so thats good, but i havent been taking my pills so im slowly turning into a psychoooo biatch. bleeeh. my body is aching quite bad at the moment. yeeah but anyways. i think i still might have a little thing for mr. herman. idk its problly cuz i loved him && once i love someone. i always love that person. i may not be in love but i sure do love them && thats the bottom line. i mean dang... the same for shaun && ryan. i do love them even if they hate me ya kno? something ya just cant help i spose. my family is ok. idk i dont see them much anymore cause im usually working or at school. sometimes im with my friends. yes yes im still addicted to a lovely thing called maryjane. i dont drink as much as i used to becuz its soo much harder to get, you get a hella bad hangover, and i drive now. so i make things simple and just smoke bud. well i spose i should shut my face up && get back to work.